growli progress comes in waves, and you have achieved a lot over the last year. It is awesome to read!

I don't share too much about my drinking history, it got quite bad and I had a lot of shame about it. But you touched me. I can see your pain and your battle, and I wanted to offer you the support I received once. Its ok though you can tell me to bugger off too.

But I wanted to share this......my drinking was self harming, I just didn't realise it. You are lucky that you do realise right now. I have had many behaviours that my T suggests are other ways of self harming, I have one now that I struggle with daily. It is a battle, but I do believe at least now sober I can face this, my PTSD, trauma history and other issues.

I hope you can find the support you need, ASAP! A good T and support to stop your drinking will help you continue on with the great changes you have made.