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I am sorry to hear that you are struggling at this time. I know your schedule is very tight but karate and martial arts both are very good for SI. It allows you a controlling factorial without the harm. I know that for some writing has had a very positive effect on not only the person that SI but for others as well. NAMI and DBSA and other support groups really would like to have more stories about cutting to help others relate to why the cutting is such a controlling impact on their lives. (YOU may not be at a place in your life that you would like to share your experience to help someone else) but it is very postive therapy for some who have had a hard time getting into a recovery mode for SI. Also you seem very positive in wanting to share your life with others here at Psych central for support. I hope the best for you in the future PS. Please try to take care of yourself. Soidhonia