Every time my friend N asks me what I'm doing to "pass" I want to punch her in the face. Yesterday it was my voice, which I don't even think about anymore because I don't care. I'm so frustrated because I started transition to live MY life on MY terms and... it's not that everyone expects me to look like a barbie doll but it seems like everyone expects me to want that and I just don't. What I would have to do to "pass" is more than I'm willing to do, I'm not giving up more of myself to other people's standards. /rant