I get to feeling like everyone else is getting life in a way that escapes me. Like I'm out of sync. I get severe anxiety because I want to be there. I want to be contributing to my and mine's lives. But I am stuck and don't know what to do or say. I get suicidal because of it.

It's not always, but for the past year its been a lot more than I ever recall in my life. I'm not sure how to get past it.