I survived my birthday, to be another day older. Feel pretty good today after the pressure of yesterday. Got a lead on a pdoc in my small, rural town. Very excited about that. Will follow up this week. I think my meds are out of whack, which is causing me to be out of whack. I take a lot of meds to be feeling as crappy depressed as I do, and still be so agitated. I need to find a good book on bipolar. This diagnosis is so new to me, and I want to learn more things that I can do for myself, to help myself get better.