My initial thought was... damned if you do and damned if you don't... find the adult.

I can relate.

Can you expand on...

I hope what ever it is that replaces the fantasys kicks in quickly because I feel adrift with no life boat in sight right now.

I would like to tell my T to %#@&#! off from time to time... like now...lol . .. but then I figure out he is on to something and I need to pay attention.....whether I want to or not... and on some level I do.... when I can pull it out from where I hide it.