Secretgarden, I guess I'm hoping that I will be able to allow myself to feel T's real caring. That right now its as if I feel to "shy" to allow it, does that make sense? Almost like I'm afraid of making a mistake. Like I am going to be found out that I really do want her to care.

Withit, No your spot on, especially with the "life story" sentence, I actually told T that I feel like I'm being asked to jump out of an aeroplane, I know I have a parachut but I'm not use to doing something as different as jumping from an aeroplane, or rather from openly discussing how someoen cares about me, I feel like I may die of shame.