UGH, THANK YOU I "lost" my son Hayden due to my borderline and starting using heroin when I stopped seeing him. I went crazy on Hayden's dad Kenny and he got a restraining on me which includes Hayden. I had supervised and unsupervised visitation, but Kenny and his lawyer convinced family court to stop the visitations after my psych evaluation diagnosed me with the borderline, even though the psych evaluation stated that that it would be in both Hayden and I's best interest to continue to have visitation .. I haven't seen him since 11/10

I got off heroin because it was just stupid to be on after a while (on and off for three years), although I still smoke pot when it's there .. so basically once I find a stable place to live I can stop smoking and really start to focus on my substance abuse and mental health recovery .. wish me luck; I hope this is much sooner rather than later (like tomorrow lol)