I didn't realize how manic I was this time and I crashed this past week. Yesterday I finally took action and went to hospital to get my mood stabilizer. I applied to insurance thru the healthcare act and my medicine was free. I wish I had gone sooner. I made a fool of myself last week. After that happened I told people about being Bipolar.

Just picked up the Geodon and will be taking tonight. I went running because I knew it would help with my nerves so I ran 3 miles somehow and held back the tears. I will continue running as much as I can.

I feel numb though, I'm tired, and I'm forcing myself to eat.