I get told by everyone I know that I'm the reason for the problems I have. That everything that's wrong with me is my own fault and I'm just that bad of a person, is why. I know it isn't true, but it's really hard to convince myself other wise, when the people close to me that I should trust and know everything they say is true, isn't the truth. So a lot of times I'm always thinking I know I'm a bad person and that the reason I have mental illnesses is because I put it on myself and it's just karma's way for paying me back for all the mistakes I made in life...