OMG, guys... something weird happened today. So, I woke up this morning and noticed there was a dead pigeon about 5 feet across the door of my house. I didn't think anything of it initially, but a couple of hours later, my boyfriend called me up to ask me something and, after noticing my consistent monosyllabic attitude towards him (that's my way of dealing with anger) he quickly changed the subject and said: "OK, so, what's the deal? How long are you going to behave like this with me?". I didn't answer. He continued:
"You're tired of helping me out, I get it. What do you want? Do you want to move to separate apartments?".
"That might be a good idea", I said.
"Do you want to break up with me?"
"That might be a good idea as well".
And he hung up on me.
Then, I remembered the dead bird and got curious about it, and this is what I found:
Quote:
|
What does seeing dead birds mean? (...) It represents a death, but it is a death of something you have been focused on. It could be the death or “end” of a bad relationship, or a bad financial situation, or a behavior pattern you have been wanting to break, etc. And with all things that end, the way is then clear for new opportunities to come into your life. For instance, if you are in an unhealthy relationship, it is unlikely that a new healthy relationship is going to come into your life if you are still involved or healing from the unhealthy one. Once you have dealt with it and are ready to move on, the universe will send you a message to let you know that it is now time to move forward with your life.
|
Isn't this absolutely creepy?? I'm not even superstitious but... the bird wasn't hurt or anything, and this door is located at the side of the house, facing another house, both are three stories high, so it's very weird the fact that it ended up right there in front of this door in particular.
Anyway, my boyfriend came home acting as if nothing's wrong and then asked me if I wanted to give us another chance now that he has a new job, and see if things can get more stable financially. I feel particularly bad that his birthday is next week... We always just go to dinner, maybe with another couple, and have a good time together. It is not like we have many friends in the city, you know? I'm still angry, but I still care about him...
By the way, I showed him the dead bird omen meaning and he was all like "oh! the dead of a bad financial situation!" and I was all like "uh, no... the dead of an unhealthy relationship". And he said "You say that as if our relationship was all f***** up. Bad relationships have verbal/emotional/physical abuse, or that sort of thing. We are just going through a financial hardship". What?? Four years (and two years of living together without the 50/50 financial support we agreed on) is
just a financial hardship??
"What if the tables were turned?? What if it was you who had a terrible luck with jobs and was having money difficulties?? I would still help you no matter what!" ... this is what he always says to win an argument. "But that's not the case and has not been the case in FOUR YEARS! I can't put this burden on me! This is not what we agreed on when I moved here, and you know it. You can't tell me you are happy in this relationship!" ... then he came over to kiss me on the cheek and said "I still love you, even when you are angry with me"... "You are insane".
