I don't know. Right now I'm fed up with it all. Fitting no criteria is frustrating because I want to know what I can expect. If I have say a Schizophrenic illness, I can just expect nothing from my life. If I'm Bipolar, then that's not really serious. Just mood states deemed unacceptable in my environment. I find it unlikely that I have ANYTHING serious (meaning my shrinks "temporary diagnosis" is probably solid) I'll just do nothing in my life and be nothing. What difference does it make? What do I matter? So I wrote a few essays above 7th grade level. Big %#@&#! deal. So either way i'm in a Catch 22. If I'm Schizophrenic I may as well undo my existance. If I'm Bipolar, no need to. Life will do it for me. Either way I fail and am nothing that I set out to be. I wanted to originally pursue a mathematics career, like John Nash. I read the biography on him and when I got to the section dealing with his Schizophrenia I just tuned out and knew I'd never be that, because I am nothing. Never have been and never will be.