I don't know what to say either. Your family is a mess and you're a fighter. What if the only thing you utterly destroy in this fight is your own family?

I'm glad you have a therapist and you've seen a doctor about meds. I hope you're sharing these thoughts and feelings about vengeance and destruction with your therapist. I just can't see the love or logic in sacrificing the entire family, but everyone has to make their own decisions. It's a very sad situation, indeed.

Take Care.