I realize just how much and how long i've been feeling this emptiness. Religion and sports an TV had been filling it for the years that I've been sober, which is almost9 years. But this emptiness goes back longer to 20 years ago as a senior in high school. I drank to fill the desperation for many years.

Rouge198, i feel that i just don't want anything. Yet medication and therapy doesn't seem to fill that void lately.