There is a difference between enjoying God's eternal love on his planned timing verses our own whether passive (anorexia/ ignoring cancer/ not taking care of medical problems that will lead to death) or active (any act considered to be suicide).

I prefer that the end of my life be on God's terms not my own....but I also understand how I value quality of life if I am going to be alive even though I still believe that in the best of situations it will be in Gods hands not mine.

The treatment center I went to only wanted to focus on body image.....there was so much other going on under my anorexia that even I didn't understand & then didn't help me understand.....that came many years later & once I was free from what was causing me to feel that way at the time.....a totally horrible marriage for way too many years that I felt trapped in with no way out.....because I couldn't see what the future had to hold......I am now 2100 miles away from that bad marriage & working on getting the divorce finalized.