I'm not looking for anything in particular. I'm just lonely and think talking about it is valuable even if it leads to bickering about the subject. I think arguments when kept above the belt are a good thing that helps people challenge themselves. Maybe I sometimes feel like I'm being pushed too hard to magically solve all of my issues or judged by people. But I'm lonely and I like talking to people about real things.

I didn't drink today. Okay technically I still could but I know I'm not going to. I'm having pretty horrible body memories right now though so I took a PRN as it is prescribed. It isn't helping much with the pain but it is making me relax and sleepy.
But oh my god it hurts. It hasn't been this bad in a long time.