Yes this life is kinda useless and don't see the meaning on it, i don't even know how i keep alive sometimes i feel so much pain inside me and i wonder how much more will i be able to handle but for now i keep on living, maybe things will get better? I don't know honestly but well, i can't give anyone a reason to keep living i don't have one myself but as long as i can handle my inner pain i will keep on living.

I don't believe in any of those things about afterlife tho, when i die i die simple as that.