It has been a while since I have posted, I haven't really had the nerve lately....

I was hoping to get some feed back to this current situation I find myself in with T. After taking a few months break from talking about it he wants to get back into childhood stuff...I wasn't exactly thrilled on the idea but he seems to think its important to discuss not just the details but even the idea of it. So I was extremely uptight a few days after my last session, like tense and I started to realize I was having a hard time with what he said about it. I have always referred to it as the game we played as kids, and I noticed he has been using worlds like abuse and consent and its like he's replacing all the words I used to describe it before with these new words.

So I started getting upset and have been trying to convince myself to start using the other words again. For the life of me I cant figure out why this has gotten me so worked up and why I feel the need to change what he said back, am I rebelling against him with it? I didn't want to admit it to him but I think I was getting angry when he was starting to use those words...no idea why. anyone else ever experience something like this ? What did you do to get past it? I honestly feel stupid that I was even thinking it....