When I am making hard decisions I look at both the positives and the negatives...like yea depending upon others for help sometimes isnt what I want to do and can be depressing sometimes. but is there something that this person can help me with, without compromising my individuality, my independence...I look back on things like my daily journal to see if there was something I had wished I had someone to help me understand and work on, if only I had asked for help on this or that would the outcomes or challenge getting to the outcome had been easier/less confusing/less stressful....

maybe you can do some of this...look back on your posts here and see if there are things in them that had you reaching out for help on, and look at whether depending on asking us for help compromised your individuality, compromised your independence, did that help compromise your individuality/independence...was there something where having a therapist could have helped you to understand and work on....

my point is there are ways to work with treatment providers without compromising ones individuality and independence. You just have to find what works for you and your internal system.