What if that is the truth, IRL? What if she has so many issues and problems of her own that she doesn't want to be your therapist anymore? How does it help you to stay in therapy with her if that is the case? What do you get out of it?

I am not trying to be mean, but I hate to see you banging your head against this wall over and over. There is some relief (and also great sadness and pain), in acknowledging that another person does not feel about us the way we wish they did, and then moving on. My life started being much easier when I could acknowledge that my mother did not want me, did not like me, and never really will. When I can completely let go of the desire to MAKE her like me somehow, my life will be easier still.