I knew this day was coming and I dreaded it. I've been seeing my T for just over a year and I've been doing better. But today he told me that he can't see me indefinitely and suggested we start winding down. He booked me for 6 more visits which takes me to Christmas. He said after the 6 visits, we could take a 3 month break to see how I do. I knew this would happen because his service is provided by a public clinic and I've already gone over my allowed visits.

He said he is doing this because he can see I'm getting better. He was being as gentle as he could about it, but I'm just reeling right now. I've had terrible abandonment issues with this guy that I finally got under control when I finally learned to trust him. Now this. The one good thing is that he said he's not going anywhere and I'm free to see him if it's absolutely necessary after the 6 weeks are up. So I don't feel totally cut loose. But my worst nightmare has come true and I'm hurt and confused.

Also, I recently started remembering that I was molested as a little girl by a man outside my family. My T told me last session he is not qualified to council CSA survivors and a facility is available for me to deal with it. He encouraged me to contact them. He also reminded me that I do have a good pdoc to see.