((((((((((( InACorner ))))))))))))))

The fact that you have posted this in the PTSD forum is an indication that some of this is flashbacks/memories. Possibly not all of it as the mind can do some amazing things when trying to slot the memories into the correct part of the brain.

I'm no expert but your name is InACorner (the little girl in the corner) seems to make sense. Your view is that the little girl is evil, no child is evil but an abuser can make a child believe that this is so. The man could possibly be your abuser?

Sorry if I am totally wrong.

I hope you have a T to help you with this, flashbacks quite often occur when the memory is fragmented and the brain is trying to work out the whole story.

Take care.