Getting drunk, feeling sui and calling your LC is not a sustainable option. She is not trained and skilled enough to deal with these serious issues and you are putting her in a situation that is over her head and scary for her. She cares about you, but you may push her to her limits if you use her like this. You do need to reach out for help, but you need more help than she can provide. If you aren't able to help yourself by not drinking or cutting, you need to reach out to SOME t in the short run, even if it takes longer to find the right tt. Otherwise, you might end up in the hospital. You can probably only call your LC in this dangerous state so many times before she hospitalizes you. She is over her head here. She can't be your safety net several times a week, it's more than someone in her position can do.