Hmmmmm interesting tying the two together. I have cut myself, not too often but enough. I said nothing to anyone for quite a few months. For me, the release is in the cuttng AND in seeing the blood but mostly in the blood coming out. It's a huge relief from overwhelming emotion. I am outside of myself when I do it. It has been about four weeks since I cut. The first time I told T was on the phone because I needed to tell him; at that moment. I guess i couldnt face him. the second time I brought it up was in session. We have not discussed it again and never really got into any details about it so I think it looms on the horizon as a future topic when I am ready.