Going off your meds and then getting back into psychedelics were two really, really bad decisions. You are SO close to being done with your monitoring program, and yet you're willing to risk your entire career for a few brief moments of communing with nature.....it doesn't make any sense.

Are you still taking care of patients while doing all of this? If ANYONE were to get wind of it, your career is done. Over. Finished. Is that what you want?

Sorry if I'm being harsh but I just don't like to see people I care about throw their lives away chasing after a "high" that won't last. I hope you don't lose everything you've worked so hard for. I'm worried about you.