I don't know for certain it wasn't like this 'before' the PTSD...but its like I get exhausted on levels I didn't even know where possible, even sometimes when only being exposed to minimal stress or when even trying to take care not to get too overwhelmed by taking on too much things at once or whatever. Of course with excessive stress or actual bad/unpleasant things happening I get exausted even easier.
But its just such a deep level like physically/mentally drained, but with the mind not relaxed, not able to really physically relax or sleep restfully...just feels like being bombarded to the point of no return...and of course I get irritable about if stress slowly builds up to this point and I litterally don't have energy but have to try and muster some up to maybe clean stuff I forgot to put away in the kitchen or do something to help around the house....or just because I don't want to admit how exausted I am due to being kind of ashamed of it or don't want to risk being accused of compaining/making excuses just to be lazy or something.
Does anyone else feel having PTSD causes a somewhat deeper level of exhaustion than one would normally have...or find themselves physically sore, tense and so mentally exhausted you don't even know if you are thinking thoughts or not? when from your perspective there is no reason to be that exhausted based on your lack of activity or exposure to any major stress that day?
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