How could it not be an appropriate topic of conversation? I was seeing a T so that I could deal with my penis...the lack of feeling, the reduced intimacy with my spouse, the sense of loss. I HAD to speak about, it was the main topic of discussion.

I have to say that the whole topic is sensitive, both to me and to the world. Half the world's population have penises, yet it is inappropriate to talk about or show your penis to anyone other than sexual partner. I had to open up to myself and my wife about going numb in my penis which was difficult. Then I needed to tell my doctor, and the specialist, and the ultrasound technician and the XRay technician...even the receptionist knew I was seeing my doctor for a numb penis. In the midst of all, that I had to accept the fact that no one had any idea how to fix the problem.

So I was referred to a pyschiatrist, at which point I admitted my sexuality to for the first time to anyone outside of my spouse or previous sexual partners. I was "drilled" over my sexual past, my preferences, fantasies, my relationship with my parents and my wife. Then when the pyschiatrist said there was NOTHING wrong in my head, I was referred to a therapist.

Again I did the same thing with her...I admitted being bisexual, I told her all the things I had done and want to do...not that I was just telling her, she was asking me these questions. So in the context of a T trying to determine a cause and treatment plan for my type of ED, having an erection and knowing when/how I get one is important. I'm not saying that she told me to tell her when I had one, but I don't see how it is possible to speak in detail about my deepest and strongest sexual fantasies without getting aroused.

So was it an appropriate topic? Yes. It had to be. Yet even now I feel some level of guilt at the whole thing. Why should I?