I'm not giving up, I haven't been around long enough
I know that you are a child, and you are alone.
My heart goes out to you, Growli.
I don't know all the back story really. But I know that you want to move away, and I guess getting somewhere completely new, getting into college, having support and making friends based on who you are now, not what you necessarily bring with you.....it's a hard task but you have so, so much time. Don't give up.