Thank you. It's definitely heading up the list for needing discussion alongside my weekend disaster.

*Trigger* for female bodily function stuff, and reference to abuse.

I'm still in a good, upbeat place, but almost had a total meltdown over nothing. My period has arrived and my vaginismus decided to kick in with gusto as I was inserting a tampon. The pain was really distressing and I nearly panicked, feeling instantly a whole wave of helplessness and depression linked to memories. But was able to reason with myself and sort it out, and calm down.

I just seem so ****ing keyed up. Like a really sensitive horse, fine and calm but then something happens and its 0 to 100 in a flash.