I'm also slightly worried by the time I get to my session tomorrow I will have gone numb again, and this will all seem like an unimportant memory.

I feel like the question I need to discuss with my therapist is - maybe this is just what it is like to not be numb, and to be tuned into a whole spectrum of feelings, and I'm just not used to it. I feel like I have two settings: mostly emotionally numb, or over-sensitive where everything is insanely painful or good like today/ yesterday but I am pretty wired.

Just noting that down here, so I can access it before I go in tomorrow. If I write in down in a private notebook I can tear it up and pretend it doesn't exist if I want, and I don't trust myself not to do that right now. I am anticipating a bit of shame after I come out of this mood/ state, for being a fusspot.