See, I can identify with this to a large degree. Something keeps me stubbornly ploughing on and surging forward, and has done for a very long time. So I could say it feels like depression caused by circumstances, layered on top of an organic ADHD that I just would have had anyway.

But I could just as easily say it might be bipolar with mood swings happening and pulling my strings like a puppet unknown to me. Or - as I've thought for a while now - ptsd along with borderline traits that flare up and down and make things harder/ easier accordingly.

I reeeeeallly need a good pdoc. I can't work out where one symptom ends and another begins.