I do worry about you drinking in the dorms, you are taking a big risk there. You do not think you will be caught, chances are you will be caught one day and probably be kicked out of college. That gives no where to go but your parents. Sorry to be so blunt here. I just want you to beaware that this may happen sooner or later.

I am a alcoholic, got myself clean a month ago. Please do not let this take over your life. You got a whole life ahead of you. Also when you get a good t she/he will help you begin to heal your past. Alcohol will not take the pain or memmories away. Yes it will involve allot of hard work on your part, but in the end it will be worth it. Do you really want to destroy your music career? Do you want to go back to your parents?

Only you can decide what you want in your life no one else can not even your LCM, therapist. Allot of people have posted on this thread and many of yours because they care so much about you and all I am seeing you do is make excuses to harm yourself. Please know no one will agree in self harm, but will try to help you make healthier choices. ((((((((Hugs))))))