I don't know what happens to me sometimes. I just can't get on with my life. I have been so lonely since childhood. I remember, I used to stay at home, sometimes on the terrace with no friends. I have since grown up like that, few friends are there but no girl in my life...I've always wanted a girl who would understand me but who would do charity to me by loving me!! I guess I am so much iintrovert. But living my life has really been difficult. I see people with so much life and freedom....enjoying their lives, while I'm so terrified of everything...the society, people, of not being loved, of being ignored, of college, of not getting a job or a partner... ahh man all I have left is self pity and inquisition of my own existence.