I don't know if this is depression or what, but I am having great difficulty in making a decision to get a job. I had this plan that I wanted to travel while I'm still young, and to do that, I calculated how much money I'd need. At first it seemed like a great plan, and I was all in.
But then I didn't do so well at the first job I was training for, so they didn't hire me... and I started to think about how bad I am at waiting tables (which was the money making job I had hoped to get).
I have spent two weeks mulling over this, and reluctantly surfing the web for waiting jobs, while hoping to get anything else. But I know deep down, the quickest job I could get would be at a restaurant, I'd just have to commit to it. If I wasn't so scared I would go hand out resumes today.
I just had this fleeting hope that maybe I could work in an office or somewhere where I could sit and not be verbally abused, and not be judged based on two days of minimal training in a high stress environment. But I have no experience in an office.
Do I need to suck it up, or slap myself out of it & get a waiting job? If it doesn't work out, I could get even more depressed... The last two jobs I had greatly diminished my self esteem. What should I do?