Not a mixed state although a mixed state can feel like a break from reality. Not a real bad mania but a true real break from reality.

Mine was awful. First I started out in a hypo. I was abused in an organization I would rather not name. Anyway there are a bunch of websites exposing it. At first I would just help new victims of this organization that had left bc I've been out 15 yrs, well 11 at the time.

Anyway I became obsessed with all the news stories. It's was some really, really sick stuff. I started not getting much sleep. I started not eating much. Then before I knew it it had been 3 months of this. My apt was in shambles. I went to the Dr but didn't make sense. I couldn't stay off the computer looking up news stories about this organization. I was completely obsessed with getting it all exposed.

Then I didn't sleep or eat for 5 days. Then a woman making a documentary about all the sick **** going on in this organization called and told me one last story. That was it, I could feel my mind slip. I started to slowly believe every business, company etc had ppl from that organization drugging and raping ppl. I thought it was all a big conspiracy. I wouldn't go to the hospital bc I thought they would drug and rape me. My mind wouldn't stop racing, just wouldn't stop with all the images of all the stories I had read. What I went through myself. I was terrified. I started accusing my family of being in the organization.

Anyway finally did go to the hospital. It took days for them to get me to sleep. It was scary...

If u don't mind sharing, what was your break like?