First off I'll start by saying that I don't know if this belongs in this forum...it may belong in anxiety.

I can't talk to anybody. I've got so many problems that I feel are too embarrassing to talk about. I'm not comfortable talking to anybody about anything serious anymore. Every time something starts to get serious I get really anxious and I have to go lay down or I have to escape somehow. I just shut down and stare blankly sometimes. All it takes for me to get worked up is for someone to mention one of my problems. Even a joke reminds me of things. I'm so thin skinned right now

It makes it worse because my family is constantly making fun of me for not talking about anything. They keep on pushing and pushing and pushing. I can't talk about these things with them because they are part to blame for some of my issues and I don't feel safe with them.

Why do I have problems sharing things with people? Why do I have to get so worked up? How can I stop letting past experiences effect me?

Sorry if most or all of this didn't really make sense...I don't know...