I feel like at this moment this is my last resort!! I have been struggling for so long now that I know longer know what happiness is. My walls are quickly closing in around me. I am told to write positive affermations and put them on my mirror...I can't think of anything positive to say. My therapist says this is good that I am finally feeling all these feelings. That once I get through all of this and to the other side I will be greatful. But I'm not so sure I can make it through to the other side. Everything I look at I see as something that can help end it. Every where I go I am looking for how I can do it. I really don't want to but I am scared that one day one of my personalities will take over and that's it. I am so tired of fighting through every day!! Especially all by my self. Im tired of the pain, the numbness, the hurt, the fog, the confusion. I'm just tired!!