Hi brokenentity, if you're around people who are ripping on you and who keep throwing hurtful insults at you it's got to make you feel even worse about your appearance and even more depressed.
Do you think maybe with some of them you could point out something like "You know, that actually hurts"?? If it might be for them that they aren't recognizing what they are actually saying and the effects of what they are actually saying.
As for other people you might just want to keep as much distance as possible from them??
What you really need are people who value you for yourself around, right?? Because there is so much more to/about you than your appearance. Stuff that matters way more than that in "the bigger picture"

And separately, there may be aspects of your appearance that you can work on with a little self care, but also remember that depression can distort your image/view of yourself as well. So parts of what you're looking at "in the mirror" are going to be blown out of proportion in your view of yourself. Maybe just as the "bullies" around you are distorting things/thoughts??

So if people (or the depression!) are telling you/convincing you of **** and you're finding that hard to beat, then you know where we are, right??

Alison