She has one daughter in high school. So not some young little kid. Her eyes sparkle when she talks of her (which isn't very often.....)

Jaybird, I really enjoyed and appreciate your post. Because that's kind of how I feel.

It does hurt that I was crying, which is something she's been trying to get out of me, and then I was just left in the dust to pick myself up. Hey, I've been doing it all my life.....so it's not like I can't....but she brought up the things that led me to put myself in that situation.

I know when our doctors are running late, so many people complain, but I know that my doctor (whom I really like) has never pushed me out before I was ready. She's the one who got me to GO to therapy.....she begged me for a long time....because I was breaking down in her office whenever I went. But, she never pushed me out.

I don't want to feel this way again, Soccermom, that's why I want to end this (crying) before it gets too out of hand. She's been trying a long time to get me to release like that, I've finally started, but now I don't feel safe to put myself in that vulnerable, lonely place again.

And yeah, I would have preferred and apology, rather than giving me the excuse as to why. I had an emotionally absent mother myself....so, unfortunately, knowing how close they are hurts too. And what a loving, involved parent she is. I'm pathetic. I know.