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Originally Posted by Parley
I think emotional exhaustion is a side effect of trauma. I am not sure if ptsd is required but I know I've been hit with a thought or two that has major physiological effects. It only last a minute or two but the side effects last for hours and sometimes days. I had to work through the beginning of my journey. I was in no shape to be living with anyone. I just wanted to be left alone. I picked up trash for a year in an apartment project because I got a discount and they took the rent out of my pay.
It wasn't legal but every other week I was able to buy a dime bag and if I was really lucky, I could buy a six pack of whatever was on sale. Coke or Pepsi. I couldn't afford Tylenol much less prescriptions but I don't believe I would like them either.
I wonder if you could use your ssi and go to college or a trade school? I'm not talking about a bunch of book learning but maybe something that keep you busy. Blue collar. Welding? Carpentry? Truck Driving? Anything to focus on while you find a way to work through your trauma?
Might even find a friend or two in business associations.
I am not saying this will work for you~ I just wonder because when I get physical, I am not as emotionally exhausted. Yes, it still kicks my *** but it's a different exhaustion. My way of doing things could also be why I'm still here~ I failed to fully recognize my experienced.
I wonder if there's a middle ground. I really hope you don't give up on finding a therapy/therapist that works for you.
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Was in college, didn't work out even part time, and to be entirely honest I think even a trade program would be too stressful right now not to mention all the crap that goes into actually applying for programs. But also I only get 721$ a month and 300 is for rent I need the remaining 400 for other needs and when able leisure things or whatever that make my life a bit more pleasant.
I just get fed up because every time I put an honest effort into finding therapy, being open minded to different kinds of therapy something always comes up..every damn time either can't manage to get an appoinment sceduled or there's a bunch of mix ups or I start getting comfortable with a therapist and due to the mismanagement or whatever then they switch me therapists out of the blue....mental health treatment is a joke it seems, if they really wanted to help they'd meet people half way instead of bombarding them with stress just to get a bloody appointment let alone show up for it...but no they put it all on you the person with PTSD to somehow figure it all out and organize it all...