Yesterday, after having a good conversation with my counselor, my mind just kept on talking. I just got going and just couldn't seem to stop. More about the topics, added problems and all just roaring around in my head. I went to bed early to escape and tried to force my mind to think about a story I was making up in my head. All of these things just made the pain, guilt, fear, and mind worse. Today I was reading about the sober mind. My mind was anything but sober. All the events with family and friends and a lifetime of struggle was roaring around in my head. Trying to figure out ways to stay sober. The pain is so great from feeling the hurt, anger, and frustration of what feels like pretty bruised family relationships. Maybe when I was whirring I should have come here where I can t least be honest about the pain.