can you talk to t about not being able to talk...just what you wrote here? that you become so overwhelmed with emotion that you shut down?she/he may be able to help you work thru that anxiety and embarrassment so that you will be able to start talking. even just printing out this post and handing it to you t would be a start. I have often just written things to my t because I have been too embarrassed to talk about it. take care.