hi tom
so why don't you? you obviously aren't happy or feeling good about your marriage. and it wouldn't be because you strayed. you didn't feel connected to your marriage before that happened. you didn't feel connected to your job. so why not walk away from it all (responsibly) and go find yourself? discover, who you are and what makes you happy. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome