well I look at your post and don't see a lot of reasons why this would have been a positive relationship for you. you don't even feel it is worth crying for him. I usually have people put a pro/con list together and see that you have he makes you feel safe and secure on the pro side and a list that goes on and on on the con side. no wonder he is not worth crying about. so to get back into single life look for the things that make you happy. I know the first thing I did was jump on the couch and have someone call me after nine oclock, things I could NEVER do in HIS home. I enjoyed everything that meant freedom, all those things I couldn't do in the relationship. I am alone now, I have been alone for a long time. when I think about getting into a relationship, I pull back from that idea because I don't want to give up those freedoms. giving up the freedom to move all over the bed, giving up the remote, making dinner anytime I want to, even if it is only a sandwich. I like those things. so just enjoy being able to live for yourself, choose for yourself. take care.