my cycle only allows me one week of mania. trying to get the right meds so it can even out, but in the meantime, it was only one week. i did everything that i can't do when im depressed, i ran, i cleaned, i cooked, and then i woke up, like time work, and it was ripped away from me. i woke up hating the world, and i hated it for taking my energy away that i so desperately wanted to keep. how can it ever feel like it will get better if i can time my moods accurately and i only get one week of "happy" every three months?
so frustrated.