I probably don't need this trigger, but the threads about this topic trigger me, so maybe they do others.

Thank you, skies. Yes, it was amazing. She was pushing my arm firmly, and for some reason it affected me. These are specific techniques that she has learned, not spontaneous touching. She keeps reminding me of the purpose of it, which in this case is to bring out the feelings, I suppose. I keep forgetting what she tells me! The pressure made me feel like I wanted to cry so badly. Instead, I have a physical reaction that she can't see.

There have been a couple of threads about physical reactions in the session. I think my session today proves what happens to me is due to the intensity of the feelings. I wasn't thinking about my T or about feeling close to her or anything romantic like that, but that reaction was there. Or it was from the discussion earlier in the session that was embarrassing for me, but was in no way about feelings for her either. It seems like I have to prove to myself that it's not about her. There seems to be shame in a lot of us when something happens that is usually interpreted as sexual in other situations. In therapy, however, I think it's due to the unique intimacy of the situation.