I've been in a therapy group with three other people. for 3 years. I'm viewed as the one that has it most together, not someone as weak or in big trouble. I talked with my therapist (one that all three of them know). What all three of them don't know is I've been going down hill. T also pointed out one thing. If things went bad and something happened, it could set all three back awhile. That's stuck with me for the last few hours. and at the same time it doesn't help. Makes things worse. Then I was out with some friends and almost had a panic attack. Some how I stopped it from happening. I just needed to vent, I'm hoping it helps the most but so far my mind is stuck. How do I get it off this and on to say... homework? There's so much I need to get done, yet I'm having a hard time focusing.

(for less confusing see blog, but trigger warning on blog)