Thanks a lot for replies. My relationship with this online friend is always turbulent. We both are frustrated and have huge expectations from other person. We fight a lot, to the extent we have deleted all ways to contact... but still something or the other happens and we get back together. We have started saying our relationship is a very special one, where we fight but yet reconcile. Like small kids.

I hate fighting with him, his ego and lack of understanding irritates me. I don't feel comfortable discussing my problems with him, yet he is only one I can think of when I want to share something... Things are bit complicated and I can't understand my feelings