So I just recently got back. A few nights ago I was really close to killing myself. I even started trying to cut myself and I burnt myself with a lighter, and that's odd for me since I've never done stuff like that. Anyway when I noticed that I was doing those sort of things I thought I should go to the ER so I don't do anything stupid. So I went there, they give me some Ativan to calm me down, and after spending the night in the ER they sent me to the psychward. Spent 2 nights there and I just got back. First let me say I really don't like it there. Kind of made it worse and there's nothing to do. But I made it through. They put me on Zypreexa when I was there so there was some med chances. When I got out I went to see my pdoc and she's gonna have me start Brintellix. Took my first dose this morning. But to make matters worse (Because I already feel pretty crappy) my girlfriend broke up with me because the whole thing "Scared her off". So that just adds to the pain :\ Sorry kinda had to rant. I guess just looking for support because I could really use it right now.

Also if anyone knows anything about Brintellix or has experience on it I'd love to know.