Hi. What a terribly difficult time for you, and what sad news to try to make sense of. You have come to the right place, and talking, letting the pain out is good. Give yourself time to come to grips with what has happened, and in the meantime make sure you take care of yourself. Its going to be rough, but you can do it. Hang in there, go through the motions if you have to, and don't stop talking. Welcome to PC, I hope you csn get the help and support you need.